I have had lots of thoughts running through my mind lately, I find that happens when I have not carved out a time to sit and be still. They roll around, noisier on empty walls. This morning I was able to sit for some time, coffee on the arm rest of our sofa and scriptures open to my left...begging to be studied and understood.
One of my biggest draws in my life is to live fully. I have this irrational need to make the right decision about everything...from my coffee order to moving here to Israel. If given the opportunity, I can make myself sick over making the correct decision, sure that if I choose incorrectly that disappointment will quickly ensue.
Moving here, stepping out in faith, helped a lot. I had no idea if, logically, this was the right decision. What over stepped that boundary, however, was that it was a chance to transcend the norm. It called to my deeper sense of faith, my deeper commitment to living life fully and with abandon.
Now, I find myself, almost a year later, not wanting to lean on that as our testimony of faith. "We sold everything and moved to Israel!" That's not our byline, it's a just a line...a sentence in the story. "What now?" I can hear the Spirit say in my heart..."how will you continue to pursue Me? What more will you lay down at My feet and how far will you let me lead you?"
What more can I lay down?
Then, this morning, as I sat and let my thoughts seep out I found myself turning to this space. Like most of the things in my life, I want it to have purpose. What is the purpose of our blog? What is the mission?
I want it to have purpose, not just to have words and pictures. There are thousands of blogs these days, so many stories and so many voices. I know I'm not a "mommy blogger" so I can rule that out, I'm also not a fashion blogger...check check. But even if I was...what is the POINT...what is my voice trying to say? What are OUR voices trying to say?
So, in the next couple of weeks, I'm going to work on a purpose statement for this little space of ours. I think it's needed. We need to remember why we do what we do, not for followers or for fame, for clothing or giveaways or a sense of worth...but for each other, to exhort, encourage, inspire and, ultimately, to worship. There is so much influence in this world of blogging, not always positive, we must continue to use our words, both spoken and written with direction. Instead of looking at the "about me" page on a blog or perusing through pictures...I would love to read the purpose statement...the mission.
What am I saying that is worth reading? Why am I saying it?
Lord, use me. Use this. Use us.
I am excited to share with you what this little mission reveals and I am even more excited to give our blog a purpose! Please feel free to share your thoughts...I'd be so intrigued.